At the beginning or maybe at the end, or maybe sometime in the middle, or NEVER, you think it's time for a new beginning. And you think of what you've been doing so far, put everything into some kind of balance, which is never straight. Would you know which things are bad and which ones aren't? Probably not. Everything that was before is going to change at this crucial moment in your life when you think you will leave all your evil, dark and bad part of you behind.
The moment of change is not chosen by you, it comes randomly without asking for it and you never know what kind of change you might get, from good to better or from bad to worse?
Putting all hopes on dreams would not make a difference, dreams will not save you from yourself. Dangerous choice to put hopes onto. Going to that better self, or going down to hell… there is one more way… no way, the way of not going anywhere, the way of living like an object that doesn't care, even so, he might feel more than most of us are capable of.
Getting to know the inner object is hard to do.
Questioning your inner object and the faith of the ego would make a difference? Most probably not. Questions… questions without answers, just because the questions are wrong. No good answer from a bad question.
Live with questions… living with wrong answers will get you nowhere.