It was all I had, memories, the endless dreams, the nightmares, the unknown paths, the fears, the blame, the darkness. Then light came into my all. The warmest blue, the dream. Then everything broke, it went away as sudden as it came, my secret life became a past secret. The cold came back, colder than before. Unfair winter. The gray fondness, the rainy shine, unstoppable weakness, dark frozen flowers, unfair winter.